Late-Night Thoughts

Good whatever-time-of-day-you're-reading-this! How are you today?

I come come to write fully equip with a stress lined rant, so time to get comfy :)

Okay first of we have the endless night packed with studying, and trying oh so very hard to not frustrate the people around and in our lives, and your sleep deprived body tries to communicate on some level of human interaction you could potentially deem as "nice", also known as finals.

They suck. There is no way around that fact. You could have a 4.00 GPA or a 2.00 GPA, and all the while they would still be stressful. It is the unnatural act of cutting your sleep down by a handful on hours up to a few weeks in advance, so you can have more time to study everything you have learned since school has started.

Of course there are the educational benefits, but that's beside the point when you feel the need to pull an all-nighter to try and shove every little tid-bit of information you think you can hold in your brain.

Okay... enough on that now on to: DRAMA! *DUN DUN DUNNNN*

By no means is this section based off of anything in my life, but seriously why does drama always seem to come up just when you feel like you have a little too much of everything on your plate?

Is that some twisted Murphy's Law I neglected to recognize?

Seriously though, I think that people should just consider having a pause button for any and or all friendships. I don't mean that in the way it sounds, but as in if there was a button where you could just put all problems aside for like a few days, just so something could be done without any other distraction, and you could return to the problem again later.

Another serious benefit to the pause button would be it would give people time to think and actually decide what they think is important to be said, versus just say stuff just out of the heat of the moment.

And I can say with full certainty that I think this idea could of saved some of my older friendships that sorta fizzled out over pent up feelings and aggressive reactions.

\My next topic is: PLEASE TRY TO SAY THINGS TO PEOPLE THAT YOU KNOW WILL RAISE THEM UP NOT DOWN!!!

This one comes out of kind of a sensitive place, because I have been told that I used to or still do (I don't really know) have people come to my blog to read what I have to say only to laugh at it and go off and tease it. That hurts. I realize I'm putting myself on display by trying out my feelings, but seriously if you're going to go off and tease me, PLEASE be classy enough to make sure it doesn't get back to me.

I seriously do not care if people want to go around and bash what I have to say, but please be kind to my face, that's all I ask.

That was sorta off kilter from what I wanted to say, but the point is still valid.

What I wanted to say was, if you have people in your life, regardless if you like them or not, I belive you should still be kind and have positive things to say.

I know it is supper hard to make something nice up to say sometimes, but it seriously helps to compliment someone, or share a (happier) thought, or something. On a selfish level it will make you feel better if you're kinder to others and share positive things.


I feel like this is a good stopping point for tonight. Just fyi I do not even come close to being perfect when it comes to any of these things, but they're some of my personal goals, and I would like to become a more positive and  less stressed person.



Anyways, I hope for better days to come,
xoxo
Olivia




* Just roll with it and pretend to hear the dramatic noise in your head.

Late Night Poetry pt3

Hey so even though it isn't "late-night" as I'm posting this, I did happen to write this at night. 

Regardless this was some stored away poetry I wrote a little bit ago but was afraid to put out into the world. If you have been reading my blog for longer than a month then you will understand my hesitating on an emotional piece like the one below.

If you are new to this weird emotionally charged blog then I'll fill you in on what has been the past...

So basically the gist of it is, some people who read my blog, were um... less than pleased at what I had to say... but I did keep the post up, and I did send out an apology to hopefully soothe things over.

My point in the story was if you know me, please don't send your self into a tizzy over the words I have created, because like most humans, I feel emotion and this is my way of expressing some of my emotional turmoil.

Along those lines, please don't start playing the guessing game as to who this is about because A) I will not tell you. B) Please respect my request to keep this anonymous.

And with that intro out of the way... here is what I wrote:

Stop.

Stop making me feel unworthy of your presence;

You are not holy.

Stop the endless whining;

Life is not perfect.

Stop your discontent for the world;

Open your eyes and see there is more than the dark side.

For each time I thought this, I wonder if I am a hypocrite for thinking so;

My response is yes, I am.

I need not think of myself as any better than the next;

We are all the same on the inside.

I need to think before I speak;

Only letting encouraging words out.

I need to see life for the beauty it beholds;

Letting the optimist out from time to time.

Suppose we’re not so different you and I;

That is just what I needed to hear to change myself.

I hope you have a wonderful day, 

Olivia

xoxo

Pet Peeves

I know I may of failed my deadline for my next post by just a little itty bitty bit, but better late than never I suppose. I thought I would write something a little more lighthearted for once, because my mood 1000% of the time will dictate on the mood of my writing, and ya know what? I'm feeling pretty happy. With that let's get to it: my pet peeves.

Lets kick of this list with something that annoys most:

inconsiderate people. I can say with full certainly that I'm not always the kindest and most thoughtful person; but I will never be found talking to someone full volume in a quite room, listening to my music so loud that its offensive to other people, or being rude to a waiter/waitress.

Short jokes.

When people insist on being correct, regardless of what the topic is. A good example of this is when people try to argue against someones opinion. Let me just set the record straight, I could careless if you think other wise but DO NOT tell someone their opinion is wrong if it simply doesn't match up with yours. You can always disagree but to shut down an opinion, its just silly and useless.

On a happier note let's touch on some things I enjoy about people:

When people hold the door open. Good job.
When people greet me with my name. Good job.
When people make eye contact or smile with me. Good job.
When people are empathetic of this that or anything else. Good job.
When people respect my and what I enjoy to do with my time. Good job.

I could literally keep that list going for days if I wanted to, but for the sake of the length of this post, I will limit it to what I have.

Comment what some of your pet peeves are in the comments! Don't forget to subscribe!

As always, have a beautiful day!
Olivia

Summer Hiatus: Complete

Mission Reboot: ready for action!

That's right, I'm back! I have been swamped for the past little bit, and currently have more ideas than I know what to do with!

Regardless, I am ready to continue on the adventure known as blogging. Along with my adventure comes a new promise..... I am going to start posting on a (semi-) regular basis! The frequency of my post will depend heavily on what is going on in my personal life that week, but I will do my best to adumbrate the zillions of thoughts flying through my mind day to day, for both your entertainment and my peace of mind.

On a more serious note, I would like to explain the main reason I decided to take a break from posting. It was mostly due to the frustration and sadness that people reacted to negatively to the post that were about how I felt. Just a reminder this is 101 of MY (better) thoughts, so if your offended by my thoughts, why would you read them? Of course I realize that now, that people reacted to my thoughts, and I thought the answer was to change your thoughts. Well, it's not! I have recently been given quite the lesson on learning to trust my own opinion and not instantly discredit myself when someone disagrees with me. Honestly I believe that there are LOADS of people out there that do the same thing as what I did, and discredit yourself in the name of peace, but is it worth it?

For a change of pace, I thought I would start a new platform for people to express some of their (better) thoughts.  So if there is something that you would like to share, just email it to oliviavanark@gmail.com and all you need to do beyond that is specify if you would like it posted anonymously.

Have a good day,
Olivia
xoxo

Dangerous People

Yesterday I did something, according to others was stupid, but I did it regardless. I decided it was time for one of the poisonous people in life to be gone. I did the whole 9-yards, un-added on every platform available, and phone number deleted. And as I did this I asked myself if it was a good idea, and my justification was yes. Yes, it is okay to cut people out of your life that no longer make you happy. Yes, it is okay to save your memories with them, but if you know the happiness you once felt with them has fleeted, and will not return, why on earth would you keep that around?

I don't want to be lectured about what I've done. I'm finally proud of myself for taking charge of my friendships, and cutting out the people who only take from my happiness and not add to it.

If you have a relationship that you're tempted to go back to that you know will not be healthy, DELETE THEIR NUMBER! UN-ADD THEM ON FACEBOOK/INSTAGRAM/ETC!

If they never make you happy, why should they get to be around you?

Thanks for letting me rant, and have a good day!

Olivia

Xoxo